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~*Brace Yourself*~
 
   
 

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~*Dedications*~
 
 
 

More to be added in near future

Turn up your speakers to hear the music!

to all of you who have made my life a living hell.. you know who you are:
 
I'll never be able to thank you enough, you dont know how
much you being an asshole has helped me.
If it werent for scum like you in my life,
I would never figure out
what a great person I am.
Thank you for making me feel like I couldnt go on,
Because thats when i found my true friends.
Thanks to all your bullshit,
I was blessed to face reality,
and it it a beautiful thing.
Oh and one more thing, Fuck you too.
 

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Wings

If I had wings to fly
I'd breathe in deep
and spread them wide
as I leap from the cliff
into the wind
where the gulls glide.

Crossing this wide sea
I glide above cruel waves
that reach up to drown my flight
in their cold
deep
blue-green graves.

And as your day grows slowly light
I'd arrive on worn-out wings
to hold you
in your waking dreams
and feel you soft
and gently warm
in my embrace at last.

Hand In Hand

Laying underneath the stars,
On a warm silent night.
Your arms are wrapped around me,
And everything feels right.

You kiss me sweet and softly,
I feel your warm gentle touch,
You help me feel protected
Under the sweet night sky rush.

My world before me is perfect.
There's nowhere else I want to be,
Except laying underneath the stars
Hand in hand, you and me.

Just when everything is perfect,
And you seem so delicately sweet,
A rush of wind comes past me
As I'm swept beneath my feet.

Nothing could be more right,
There's nowhere else I want to be.
Let's take a walk my only love,
Hand in hand, you and me.

Lost

I stared past my preacher
as he lectured me,
tears poured down my face
I knew what this was
I needed no lecturing
I only came to him for help
all I needed was moral support
I looked into his face
I knew what he was saying,
(the same as everyone else)
though I heard no words
I only cried harder
I understand everything
I don't need people to tell me what's wrong
he seemed to be my last resort
he was the only person I had left to turn to
and he had failed

now what?

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~*BrokenSoldier*~ Live Jounal

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~*You think you know me*~

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~*Wounded Wings*~ Songs/Poems by me

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 !Linkin Park!

Angel Teardrops

For Lil Javy

My guardian angel, once careless and free,
flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.
His tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.
His smile had left us without a trace.

His angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared,
I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare.
I knew that angels, often content,
were very special presents that God had sent.

To see one so sad,
so afraid,
so alone,
had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.

His wings lost feathers,
comforting and soft,
falling from the stars,
floating aloft.

His pain was felt throughout the land,
to feel true misery is impossible to stand.
I prayed so that when her hurting stops,
I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops.

lOnGiNg FoR yOu...*

When you
                                       look into my eyes,
                                       Is it because you sense what I feel for you? 
                                       Or is it because you feel the same?
                                       
                                       When our eyes meet,
                                       What is that strange look,
                                       that makes me smile,
                                       even makes me frown?
                                       
                                       When we pass by each other are you thinking about me?
                                       Are you longing to speak out?
                                       Do you ever look back and see me go?  such as I?
                                       
                                       Things stop you,
                                       I know you have 'her.'
                                       
                                       When you pass by is it your whispered name you hear coming from me?
                                       Can you see behind my smile,
                                       Behind my eyes,
                                       And know i'm crying inside, know i'm dying?
                                       
                                       Do you know all the pain this forbidden love is causing me?
                                       Do you even care?
                                       
                                       I'm confuesed, 
                                       I don't know were this lonley path of love is taking me,
                                       Would you hold my hand and take me through this path?
                                       Or will you reject and leave me... for the past?

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To the only two adults i can count on!
 
to my dad:  You are my life! You dont know how much of a diffrence your making in me.
Thank you for supporting me 100%
Always gave me EVERYTHING I needed, and never
with question.
thank you for giving me your unconditional love,
Your the greatest and kindest soul i've ever know.
I love you daddy!
 
 
To Gaby:
 
Girl, You have NO idea how much you've helped me out.
When things get really bad, as usual, i know i
can always come and talk to you.
You always know the right things to say
and always take the doubt away.
You've showed me how to be a very strong person,
just like you are. Your the best role model i can think of.
I know i can get along fine, because I know you did.
And you taught me that sometimes it just takes time
but things get better, and ofcourse, we have our gaurdian angel watchin over us..
I love you Gabster!
 

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 Mickey, Gaby, Tia Martha, and grandma

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Screams Of Frustration

How I wish I could look back to understand
back to when lives were taken
back to when families were separated
back to when children were murdered
I wish I could have helped to save them
I wish I could have tried to understand this senseless taking of human life.
They are no different than you or I.
They did not deserve this pain, this torture.
I wish I could look back to understand, to set lives free
to learn their pain and frustration.

Trying to understand;
I can hear their screams
I can hear their pain
I can hear their fear
I can hear a mother's cry when children are shot down
Oh, that pain so great, so terrible
I can smell the odor,
the odor of burning human life
I can smell the sweat,
the sweat of hard labour
I can smell the fear,
such an atrocity

I see the footage today, trying to learn what happened to them.
I watch the films today, trying to comprehend the pain they went through.
We all see the pictures, watch the torture, just trying to imagine this tragedy.
But the fact is we can't, unless our human life undergoes this.
These poor people, my heart cries out but there is nothing I can do.
Oh, please hear me. I am so sorry this had to happen to you.
Your time is now, it is here, time to rest,
time to be reunited and live everlasting in that great kingdom
called heaven.

 
   
 

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 My Granny

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Spawns of the devil! (just kiddin)

 Mathew

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Christopher

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Chris and Isac

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~* My Gaurdian Angel*
Javier Rodriguez Jr.

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~*Missin you always*~

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I'm
                     about to lose control
                     
                     I, I don't know why
                     Why you need some reason to feel lost inside
                     You, you know that I'm alright
                     You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and
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                     I don't use excuses
                     Don't ask why
                     It's just a breakdown
                     It happens all the time
                     So get out of my face
                     Don't even try
                     Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
                     
                     Yeah I loved you all my life
                     You don't even know a thing I feel inside
                     No, by the look in my eye
                     That I'm just fine but I might need you to hold me tight
                     
                     I don't use excuses
                     Don't ask why
                     It's just a breakdown
                     It happens all the time
                     So get out of my face
                     Don't even try
                     Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
                     
                     I don't use excuses
                     Don't ask why
                     It's just a breakdown
                     It happens all the time
                     So get out of my face
                     Don't even try
                     Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
                     
                     I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
                     I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
                     I had a bad day, I 'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
                     I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry
                     
                     Just let me.... cry
                     
                     Just let me cry, I'm crying, I'm breaking down.........
                     I'm breaking down just let me cry
                     
                     I don't use excuses
                     Don't ask why
                     It's just a breakdown
                     It happens all the time
                     So get out of my face
                     Don't even try
                     Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
                     
                     I don't use excuses
                     Don't ask why
                     It's just a breakdown
                     It happens all the time
                     So get out of my face
                     Don't even try
                     Ya wanna help me, just let me cry
                     
                     

~* My GuEsTbOoK*~ Sign me damn you!!